I've been having more and more odd dreams and I don't know, but I think I might be remembering something that I forgot. But I still don't know how I managed to forget it. I mean, I'm generally not a forgetful person and I can't figure how I'd forget something like that. I've been brushing it off as just dreams, but my dreams have never been so vivid before.
They seem so real that I can almost feel the sakura petals fluttering around me.
I don't know what I'm doing anymore.
Since people left for Prydain, I've had less blackouts, which is good, considering. I did pass out while out with Zell the other day though. In the middle of... Ehm... Well, in the middle of kissing. Shut up, Rinoa, shut up.. He carried me over to his place and I kind of stayed for a while.
I passed out from pain, I think. That part is a little fuzzy. But as I did, I remembered... Ah, heck, I don't really know what I was remembering. Or dreaming more like. Because it CAN'T be real, it CAN'T. I've never, ever felt for Squall that way. EVER. I know that. I think I know that. Selphie, I don't know what to think anymore.